The New Year, New Me Bullsh*t!

Oh boy! 2013 is finally coming to an end. I have so much to say and it is so hard to decide where to start, but I will start by saying one thing I could not be any happier that this year has finally come to an end.

I see 2013 as a dark year for me, I can’t be cynical and say nothing good happened because just the fact that God has granted me with the gift of life is more than enough of a blessing. But this year has got to be the most difficult of all the 22 years of my life. If I look at it from a positive perspective, I would say all this challenges have made me grown into a stronger and more determined woman.And I am starting this new year with many goals and the courage to conquer anything I set my mind into.

Like I said before, this has been a year packed with challenges, some harder than others but honestly they just kept on coming with no break for me. All this challenges taught me that I can’t settle for a no, and I can’t give up no matter how many times life knocks me down. I have learned to put my trust in God, and since I made that decision I can say things have been easier to deal with. I stopped writing for long and now you might be wondering what have I been up to, and I will tell you I have been up to a lot of things! In a few months my life has changed dramatically and to prove that you have missed out on quite a lot I will tell you now I am currently not living in a Third-World Country. AHA! Surprise, surprise! I have accepted a new adventure for this new year and I decided to come to spend some time in USA. Some weeks ago we made the difficult decision to come to America for some undefined period of time. To be exact on Wednesday, December 11th me and my youngest siblings got into a plane that was headed to Washington DC.

You might be thinking “Who wouldn’t want to be in USA?!” and I will answer you “I wouldn’t want to”. Don’t get me wrong, this is a beautiful country with many opportunities, and yea it is way safer than my lovely Honduras but you need to know that there is no place like home. In my next post I will talk especifically about my move from San Pedro Sula, Honduras to New Jersey, USA and I will give you all the details, opinions and everything you need to know about this transition. Right now I just needed to mention about my move so you can have a glimpse of how crazy this year has been for me.

This year has been a challenge to every aspect in my life: family, work, health, my degree and my relationship with my boyfriend. But I am glad it all happened because no matter how cliché it might sound it all made me grow stronger, and it taught me to appreciate all the small things in life. Now I am much closer to my family, I have learned and grow with my boyfriend as a couple, I have learned to be more patient and more grateful. I need to tell you this year I had been getting a bit cold on my faith, and started leaving prayer behind me, but there was one day that it was so difficult for me to deal with, and I thought I was gonna lose it, so instead of sitting and feeling sorry for myself I decided to pray and read the Bible and I found something to hang on to, but it didn’t just restore my faith but this day turn out to be so beautiful and so good to me that it makes it so hard to even describe it. But I just want to say that for the first time in almost 2 years I felt peace, after so much prayer and reading Bible verses I was just gifted with supernatural peace, and ever since that day I have been constant in prayer, so if you believe in God or you are from any religion I would encourage to grow in prayer, because it was the best decision I made this year.

Now, I wont start with the New Year, New me bullshit and no, my resolution wont be to spend 12 hours a day in a gym or to fit into my old clothes, We should not wait for January 1st to set new goals, to improve who we are as humans, to change and move on. Make it your goal to examine yourself every single day of the year and change everything you don’t like. Don’t wait for Monday to start that Diet, why even start a Diet? Why not making it a lifestyle? Yea I have some resolutions but not only because there is a new year, but because I want to change many things in my life. And this time my goals are much less shallow and they are more likely to happen.

It is my goal to be a selfless person. It is my goal to start giving to others instead of sitting down and expecting to receive. It is my goal to be truly happy despite the material things I might or might not have, I want to be truly happy so I can make others happy. It is my goal to learn to be much more patient. It is my goal to not give up on the things my heart truly wants- if it is someone I love, some specific thing that I want I wont give up on me. I want to learn to appreciate even the smallest thing I have, because it is the smallest thing you have that you miss the most once it is gone. I want to learn to let go of things that do not add anything to my life, all those things and people that are just taking space. I want to be more independent and learn that my happiness depends on me and not on people. I want to actually live life and not just let life pass me by without enjoying it. I want to go in adventures, run risks and conquer fears. I want to be less judgemental and more forgiving, because only those who can truly forgive are the ones who can live at peace with themselves. I want to be the best version of me, and be someone who I am proud to be, I want to love me. Because it does not matter how much others love you if you do not love yourself you are uncapable of receiving love.I want to be anxiety free, I want to spend much more time with my loved ones because work is not all. I want to love passionately, to marry my best half and make him the happiest man. I want to be able to travel much and learn a bit from every place I visit. And of course I want to be healthy so I know I need to keep up with the healthy habits, but I do not want to stop enjoying life just because I can gain some pounds! If you are craving Pizza eat that damn Pizza, eat cake, enjoy it and do not have regrets. You shouldn’t set a diet as your goal, your goal should be a healthy and balanced lifestyle. And this is my most important goal: to learn to be balanced in everything I do, because having too much of anything can have negative results. Just aim to find the balance in everything and you will find the key to success.Commit to explore yourself, to find out who you really are and if you do not like it then keep making changes, just stop being unreasonable and know there is no such thing as perfection.We tend to see perfection in others and be harsh on ourselves. So what if the girl next door has blonde,straight, long hair or the body that you dream of? Who tells you she is perfect, she is probably wishing to have something you do have! That is life, we all want something we don’t have, and it is ok you just need to accept we can’t have it all. You should just prioritize and think if those things you are missing is what you truly want, and if they are then fight for it! Never give up, but while you are fighting for your dreams learn to live at peace with what you already have!

Of course I want many material things, I have many shallow desires but they are not my priority. I would love to look like Gisele Bundchen, I would! But is it something reasonable? No! I do not need to look like her to be beautiful or to be happy! Because someone will always find the true beauty in us. Maybe if I looked like Gisele I would not have the boyfriend I have now, because maybe she is not his type (although that seems like a crazy assumption), so I look the way I look for a reason, instead of torturing myself because I am not her, I can make different choices and become the best version of me, and love me!This new year focus on yourself, on your inside before trying to change your outside, before trying to change those around you. Because people will change not because you tell them to, not by what you say but you can always influence them with your actions. Remember your actions are more attractive than your words.

We all have different needs and wants, but one thing I would recommend is instead of making a long list of unreasonable things choose things that you know you can do! Start with the smallest one, little by little you will get where you need to be! Remember it is not the New Year that makes you a new you, it is you who make yourself who you choose to be!

I look forward to a new beginning, to a strong me who will conquer big things!

Happy New Year, I pray and wish for a healthy, happy and succesful 2014 for all!

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Comic version of me and boyfriend saying Happy 2014!

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Classifying to the World Cup.

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Four years ago, on this same day Honduras was paralyzed for 90+ mins. Our team was playing against El Salvador on a game that it was all or nothing- we had to win. We were playing for a chance of classifying to the World Cup. We had 28 years of not classifying to the World Cup and this time we were so close to making it. The game was played in Cuscatlan, Salvador. Many people traveled to support our team but of course not everyone could traveled so restaurants, bars, houses in Honduras were packed with people watching the game; streets were empty because everyone was watching the game. I remember it was such a difficult game, the score was 0-0 and everything was looking bad because we didn’t only depend on our score but the score of the match USA-Costa Rica. Costa Rica had to lose and we had to win our game in order for us to classify, but none of that was happening. We were not scoring and Costa Rica was winning 2-0. We were all suffering but not giving up, not losing hopes, and I remember clearly how in the second half on minute 18 my all time favorite player elevated our hopes and scored a great goal against El Salvador. The feeling was amazing we were closer than ever. But our game finished and Costa Rica was still winning against USA, the American thing only had 4 minutes or so to score two goals and send them home. In those 4 minutes Honduras was still paralyzed- now we were watching a different game and cheering for a different team, USA. Our team was still in Cuscatlan the field waiting to hear about the results that were going to decide if we made it or not, people in the stadium were quiet hoping for the best. And in those four minutes miracles happened, USA scored two goals and gave us the ticket to a so long dream of an entire country. When our team received the news in El Salvador’s field people went crazy, celebrating, crying, yelling. Our players started running around, jumping of joy, went on their knees and thanked God, hugged each other, they couldn’t believe it- no one could. After 28 years of not making it to a World Cup, we classified once again, we were in it again.

You might think it’s not a big deal but honestly, you would have to be Honduran to understand. That year was such a difficult year in my country- we had earthquakes (which never happens here), we had several viruses killing people (Influenza H1N1), and severe political issues. And after so many bad things happening to us, after a terrible year our football team was giving us hopes and something to look for. It was God’s way of rewarding us. It was not only happiness, but it was something that was making us feel proud of our country- not everything sucked now.

Football in Honduras is a big deal, we don’t only watch it, we live and love it. It brings the entire country together, and it that moment we are all one big family who is hoping for the same- our team to win.
When our national team plays, our country stops moving and we all get together to watch the game. Stores, banks, Universities- everything is closed except for bars and restaurants where you can watch the game. That day everyone is smiling, excited and dressed up in blue and white which is our flag colors, you can also see flags everywhere- cars, houses, banks, malls, etc.
We feel that is more than just a game that we are winning- it just takes our minds off our daily issues. All the deaths, unemployment, violence, corruption; they are all gone for those 90 minutes our team is playing. We are all one big family no matter gender, age or social status. There’s probably nothing that unites our country as much as football does.
We might not have the best team in the world, and we might not be as good as Spain but there’s something you won’t find in some other teams and we got it- our players give out their hearts in the field. They play with passion. And even though we don’t win every single match, it’s such a joy to see them play. We might be pessimistic about everything that happens here but we never are when it comes to our football team, and even when there’s no chances to win we never give up our hopes. And when we win it’s an endless party, you will find people out in the streets celebrating ’til 4 am, hugging complete strangers and drinking all night long.

There’s nothing like living a game in Honduras, and it’s contagious. You can find many foreigners celebrating with us, for our team. It’s impossible to describe or explain why, but there’s something special about watching a game in Honduras. It’s an adventure, it’s an experience full of passion and joy. You can find people who don’t cheer as much for their country as they do for Honduras. I’ve had friends from different places being just as passionate about our team as we are, and when I ask them if they were just as passionate about their national team their answer is no; and they can’t explain why they feel so good to cheer for our team. It’s a mystery but it’s just amazing.

Tomorrow we have a very important match, and it will basically decide if we classify to the World Cup or not, we play against Jamaica. But just like last time, it doesn’t only depend on our score. Costa Rica is playing against a very strong Mexico. In order for us to classify Honduras must win and Mexico must lose against Costa Rica. We are crossing fingers already, and tomorrow is the day when our country will be paralyzed.
If you ask a Honduran who their national heroes are, and who is most respected- it won’t be a politician or the president, it’s our National Football Team. They unite us, they give us joy and hopes of something better, they never fail to make our country happy. Hopefully tomorrow won’t be the exception, and even if things don’t go as planned we have so many reasons to love our team. But we want to cry tears of joy tomorrow, just like we did four years ago!

Vamos mi “H”! Brazil 2014 is more than a dream!
Hasta la vista,
Adri ❤️

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Singing in the shower.

I have a hidden passion that not everyone knows about- I love music. I am constantly asking God why didn’t he gifted me with an amazing voice. I know, we all love music and it’s a big part of our lives; but I am truly passionate about it, I LOVE music and I can’t go more than an hour without listening to music. I enjoy taking a shower mostly because I get to perform without people complaining about my voice, haha. Being a singer was my first dream as a kid, I would sing all the time, and when I was a kid my voice didn’t sound that bad (at least no one complained about me having a horrible voice). I remember that during my elementary years I was part of the school’s choir, and then on middle school I was part of my school’s band; I was obviously not the main attraction but I got to sing many times and it was amazing. Now, I am conscious of my not-so-beautiful voice and I don’t torture people by forcing them to hear my song, haha. But music is always a part of my life; just like everyone, I enjoy music, I need music all day, everyday to relax, to improve my mood or just to feel understood. Yes, sometimes the only way I feel understood is through a song. And sometimes the only way I have of communicating is through a song- doesn’t it happen to you? Sometimes you are so overwhelmed, so confused, you have so many things in your mind and yet not one reasonable sentence comes out of your mouth, but then you listen to a song and you connect to it, you feel that it says all you’ve been trying to say, and suddenly that songs fit you perfectly. And what’s amazing about music is that you’ll always find one song that fits you- ALWAYS! No matter what mood you are in, no matter the situation or what you are dealing with you’ll always find a song that will be “just right” for an specific moment.
Music is so powerful, because just like you can find a song that goes perfectly with your mood, just as well you can discover how a song can AFFECT your mood. Call me crazy, but music has the power of changing your mood- good or bad. It happens to me all of the time. I remember so many mornings when I was on my way to work with my friend, we are obviously not morning persons and whenever we had to wake up way too early we would be in such a bad mood but then we would turn on the radio, look for a good song and in matter of seconds we were dancing, yelling out the song and just dramatizing the song. Did we look crazy and ridiculous? Yes, of course, all of the people in other cars would be staring at us, giving us crazy looks. But it didn’t matter, now we had the energy to start of a day- just by singing a song at loud. And you can also be affected in a totally opposite way, if you are feeling great but for some reason you start listening to very soft songs, or the heartbreak songs you will find yourself feeling sad, and suddenly you are not feeling energetic.
And this is not only things I just made up, but it’s actually proven. I remember learning a bit about the topic when I started my psychology degree, and they would give us examples on how music can affect your mood and how restaurants and supermarket and different business take advantage of that; when the place is full they put on happy music, the one that makes you wanna dance- why? Because that music makes you move faster, gives you energy in some way. So when the place is full they need you to be faster, to shop faster and to leave so you can make space for the
people who are coming in. And then when the place is relatively empty they switch to slow pace music, because they want you to take your time and look at everything they offer and you always end up taking something that you didn’t plan.
Another example on music’s power is when you are a baby- it is very common that they recommend pregnant women to put on some Mozart or Beethoven for the baby to listen to it even when it’s just inside the belly. It can help their babies once they are born in so many ways. For example: if the mother puts music to the baby while she is pregnant to use it as relaxation, when the baby is born and the baby starts crying if the mother puts on the same song the baby will start calming himself down, because it will remind him of the days he was inside the belly and will make him feel protected. Also, you can train your baby. If when you are pregnant you put some music before going to sleep every night then once the baby is born he can get into the routine of going to sleep every time he listens to that same music.

Music has so many health benefits and the good thing is that it’s cheaper than medicine AND it doesn’t have side effects. Scientist are still studying why or how exactly does it help, but one thing that everyone knows is how it reduces stress and anxiety- and that is pretty amazing because anxiety and stress tend to cause you so many different and unexpected sickness and if you reduce it then chances are you won’t be getting sick oftenly.

Music also unites people.

This is so true, and maybe you would think that it only unites teens who feel connected to so many other teens they don’t know just because they are all inlove with One Direction or Justin Bieber; but music unites all types of people, regardless their age, gender or race. Maybe you are a 20 year old who likes Maroon 5 or Justin Timberlake, or a 50 year old who loves Elton John or a guy who loves Metallica. But either way, if you go to a concert of your favorite artist or group you will end up connecting to thousands and thousands of strangers that feel similar to you, and you won’t care you don’t know them at all but in that moment they will be your family, your friends who are connected by music.

Music is one of God’s greatest gift and you have music for your great days, special days like your wedding, bad days like when you broke up with your boyfriend- any day, any time. Sometimes you don’t need to understand things and you just need to feel it, feel it in every part of your body and that’s how music works and that’s what music is for.
That’s why artists should stop making crappy music, singing songs that have no meaning and acting stupid just to become more popular. They should sing meaningful music, write lyrics to which people will identify and prove that you want to inspire not just sell records. Sometimes songs are not the problem but it’s the artist who doesn’t have the passion that the song requires. When you hear a song you should not only hear the original version, you should listen to the covers. You can always find tons of suggestions of people who made covers to “x” song on YouTube, and if you give it a try you won’t be disappointed. Sometimes the greatest talent, the real artist are not the ones who are making millions of dollars for a record and have more popularity. Now a days, the real talent is yet undiscovered and it’s mostly because people don’t take a minute and don’t give the chance to listen to those artist who don’t have much fans, to those artist who are recording from a laptop camera in their rooms.
I take time to listen to new talent, and I’ve found a way of discovering so many talented people- through Vine believe it or not there’s more than just funny vines, but you will also find new artist playing their songs or covers.
I have a new favorite artist, his name is Joey. I am trying to contact him for an interview because I’ve been following him and his sister on vine for a while, they both sing and let me tell you their last cover just blew my away. I couldn’t stop listening to the song, I kept on repeating and getting goose bumps, it was just amazing. Hopefully soon I’ll be posting my first interview about the talented siblings.

Remember, find music that will affect you in a positive way. Music that will inspire you, don’t stick to something just because everyone is listening to it. You will find the real power of music once you start opening yourself to things that are new- not only the popular. Of course there’s a lot of very talented artist who ARE already popular, but not because you see them on MTV means that they are good.

Turn on the radio, sit back and enjoy the music, feel it, fall inlove with it..

You can listen to Joey and his sister, Jessi here

Hasta la vista,
Adri ❤️

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Living in the world’s most dangerous city.

I don’t know if you knew this or not but San Pedro Sula (the city where I live) has been chosen more than once as the world’s most dangerous city. Now, I have no idea who decides which is the most dangerous city and what information do they use exactly to make such a decision. But to be chosen as the most dangerous city out of more than 4,000 cities in the world it’s something is pretty big in the worst way possible. (I don’t know what’s the accurate number of cities in the world but you can have an idea here )
I don’t know how is it to live in a my other country or city, I don’t know if there is truly no place as unsafe as my beautiful San Pedro but I would like to think we are not the only ones that are being dominated by violence.
I want to give you an introduction to what it’s like to live in Honduras. This is such a beautiful place and has so many beautiful people; we are warm, nice, loving and very charismatic people, and you will always find people smiling when you walk in the streets.
I’ve lived here for 21 years- that’s all my life. I remember growing up in a city where I could play on the street, where I could sit outside and enjoy nature and enjoy life. I remember growing up surrounded by beautiful people, where even strangers would stretch out a hand to help you out, where you could sit and talk to someone you just met on a mall, on the street or anywhere and you could just enjoy a nice conversation. But as I grew older it has become harder and harder to do those things and be spontaneous and go out and become friends with total strangers on the street. In some way I feel like Dora the Explorer (haha) because I had much more freedom as a kid than I do now as an adult. Not because my parents don’t let me have that freedom but it’s more due to the fact that violence doesn’t allow me to live freely.
Do you know what’s like to wake up everyday and find in the newspapers that there were at least 3 heartless murders while you were sleeping? That’s what we live daily. I can’t remember the last time I saw a newspaper and there wasn’t at least three news talking about some murder or some kidnapping. When I was younger we had to live some violent days, we had a hard period where gangsters would take over parts of the city and make a hell out of it, or they started kidnapping people and ask for outrageous amounts of money in order to return the victim and they would just end up killing that person if you paid or not. It wasn’t a nice season for us, but we were able to overcome those days and didn’t let gangsters keep us from living life and enjoying, we didn’t let them rule over us. But it’s been quite a few years since a new issue has been affecting us- that’s drug cartels. I can only compare these last years to the era of Pablo Escobar in the 80’s and early 90’s in Colombia. If you are a Colombian, you will understand exactly what I mean. It’s amazing how powerful and how indestructible this “business” is. It has taken over out country and unlike Colombia we have no honest authorities, we don’t have people who will stand up for our country and say “it’s been ENOUGH”. All the powerful people who can actually do something about it are being bribed and rather think for the moment receiving money from this people instead of thinking long term and realize that if they keep letting this drug “lords” do what they please in a future there would be no way of actually living in here. And it would be such a waste- such a beautiful place will just become uninhabitable. It’s already hard to survive, it’s already sad how we live I just can’t imagine how it will be 5 years from now.
Where I live the pizza is delivered faster than the police would ever react to an emergency. Why? Is it become they are THAT useless? No, it’s mostly because they are being paid by the same guys who go around destroying, murdering and doing all sort of illegal things you could think of. You can’t ever trust the police, because most likely they will end up doing the job the bad guys started. Instead of feeling safe you feel scared around them.
It’s no secret that we have a pretty bad economy, and salaries are so low. There are places in my country where people are so poor that a family of four people has to survive with only $1 or $2 a day; yes, with only $2 top. Have you ever have to feed your family with only two dollars? Me neither. And of course people get tired of being miserable, they don’t want to forever live like that. There’s no way the government supports them, we have no shelters or places where we can get free food at least for a day. There’s no scholarships to help this people who don’t have a chance of receiving higher education. There’s not enough employments, there’s not enough opportunities to help you be successful. If you were born poor, it takes more than just hard, painful work to change that. So with all that being said, it’s easy to understand how many people out there choose the easier way and start working for this drug dealers who offer them so much more money than they would get if they had a regular job. But at what cost? Risking their lives? Having to be a heartless person who would be able to kill an entire family, who would not think twice and kill a man in front of his sons, leaving lots of empty homes, making it impossible for decent people to go outside. I’ve obviously never been in their shoes, I’ve never lived a life as hard as them so I don’t know if being extremely poor is reason enough to work as a hitman. I am not even sure anymore if they really do it because of their extreme poverty or there’s some sick reason behind it but there are men who are hired to murder someone and in exchange they receive $25. Yes, that’s the prize they put on life in my country.
We have such a bad cycle of issues- corruption, poverty, drug dealing. It’s an endless cycle. People won’t ever have a clean chance to improve, to succeed in life, to be someone better because our country is being lead by selfish people who have no interest in our people, but only care to make their own fortunes grow bigger, and then this same insane need of our political leaders to become richer and on the other hand the extreme poverty and ignorance of others pushes them to ally to the drug dealers and form this partnership to work for the wrong reasons and goals.

There’s so much to tell about this topic that an entry wouldn’t be enough. I will be writing and explaining more to depth in the future.

Hasta la vista,
Adri ❤️

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23 reasons to be thankful today.

So today is October 2nd, 2013. That means my penguin is turning 23 (even though Skype says it’s his 22nd birthday) haha
In honor of his birthday number 23 I will make a list of the 23 things that make him so special and perfect, so here we go:

1. He is hot. He is not just hot but he is like seriously HOT.
2. He is smart. He is probably the smartest person I know, in every sense. He blows me away daily because he can solve things so easily, and when it’s hard for him to solve something then I know that’s a big problem.
3. He is funny. That was quite a surprise for me, because he looks so serious and then when you get to know him you realize he has a great sense of humor.
4. He is adventurous. He will sign up for any adventure and I know that we’ll be going on lots of crazy adventures through life.
5. He is random. I love this about him (most of the time) because he doesn’t go on a routine and he will surprise me when I least expect it, and that’s a great way to never get bored.
6. His eyes. I think he has the most beautiful eyes someone could have- I still can’t tell if they are blue or gray or green haha they are just so unique and cute.
7. He is a gangster. Of course he is not really a gangster but he has the soul of one. And he is just so cute when he starts talking like some rap singer.
8. He is one of a kind. There’s not two like him- from the way he dresses up to the way he acts he is just something else. He is not afraid to be himself and that makes me love and admire him even more.
9. He is an athlete. Well he likes to run and runs pretty fast. For some reason I like that in him, and it keeps him healthy and in a very sexy shape.
10. He loves beer. I love that we can just sit together and have some beers and he won’t get stupidly drunk and embarrass me. We can just chill and enjoy together.
11. He is patient. At least when it comes to waiting for me- he has been waiting for me to move in with him for a long time and he still doesn’t give up.
12. He is a winner. He doesn’t just settle for little, he goes all the way for the best.
13. He admits his mistakes. My baby is man enough to admit when he is wrong, to admit when he did a mistake; and it makes me proud of him because only great people can admit they failed.
14. He is a good listener. I love how amazing he is and how much he loves listening to my stories- I feel good when I talk to him because I know he actually enjoys to listen to me without complaining about my nonsense and all the crazy stories.
15. He is lazy. I love it when he is lazy and just wants to cuddle in bed. I know we will have many Sundays where we will only stay in our pjs all day.
16. He loves movies. He keeps me updated with the latest movies and makes the best recommendations.
17. His hair. Well, he actually has no hair- and that makes him hotter. If you want to picture him just think of Vin Diesel or Bruce Willis he rocks that look just as good if not better.
18. He is a badass. When I am with him he makes me feel so safe, I know he would protect me of anyone if he had to and he would fight whoever he needed to and he would always back me up in any given situation.
19. He is a bookworm- I’ve never seen someone get so into books and enjoy them as much as he does. He makes the best choices; he doesn’t choose just the typical book everyone would- he is more interesting than the rest.
20. He is good at saving yet he is not cheap. This particular characteristic makes me love him so much. I am bad at saving money, but he has make me improve in that sense, lead by example I’ve learned and I’ve been motivated to save money for our future. He would spend money on us, give me special and expensive treats but he won’t waste his money stupidly which is great if you want to ever be financially stable.
21. He is an amazing lover. (No need to explain, he knows it).
22. He is the most loving person. He can seem so tough but yet has the best heart anyone could have. He is so kind hearted that it melts my heart.
23. He loves me like no one could. I am not exaggerating but I could never receive as much love as I receive from him, and I will be thank him forever for that.

If someone wants the recipe for the perfect man they would need to talk to my mother-in-law. I don’t know what or how she did it but I will be forever thankful that she made such a hottie and raise him up to be the man of my dreams.

To my man, on his birthday.
I hope you enjoyed this and I hope you have an amazing day today. If I had to I would choose you a million times. There’s nothing I want more than spending the rest of your birthdays together, I can’t wait to grow old with you and even then you would still be my hottie, my handsome, my man! Thank you for making of my world a better place.

“If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you.”

Love you forever and always my penguin! ❤️

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Where do I belong?

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Where do I belong?
I remember asking myself this question constantly since I was a teenager, I am not sure I have the answer to it yet, but I want to believe I am closer to finding it now.
As a teenager I always felt that I didn’t fit in, I was not confident and I was lost. I always had so many doubts and so many questions like: what’s my talent? Am I even good at something? What am I supposed to do in life? What do I bring to this world? Am I ever going to “fit in”? What’s my purpose? Will I ever be successful? Where do I belong??

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I never thought I was going to find an answer to all the doubts I had, I felt like a failure and I started being afraid of the future. When I graduated Highschool I had no clue what I was supposed to do next, but guided by what society tells me I enrolled to the most expensive College in the city and decided I wanted to get a Marketing degree (me? Marketing? WHAT?). I have not enough creativity to be in such an area, it was a huge mistake. I obviously failed bad at it, but what can you expect? #1 I had to decide what I wanted to be in life when I was only 16 years old! And the problem is that if you graduate Highschool when you are only sixteen years old you think you are pretty badass, you probably think you are some sort of genius; but then you get to College and think “How the hell did they let me graduate and get to College this fast?!”.
#2We are living in a time where High School education might be a waste of time, because honestly: what do you learn? They don’t even push you to THINK, you don’t learn to deal with real life problems, and they don’t help you to discover yourself. Don’t get me wrong because I’m not saying you don’t learn useful stuff, because you do learn a few things that are important and will help you. But if I spent so many years studying I would hope that once I graduate I am at least a bit ready to face this world, and sadly that’s not the case- you are not ready.

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In my country, society expects you to decide what degree you want as soon as you graduate High School, they want you to choose your path, and decide who and what you want to be for the rest of your life. It’s really stupid to force or pressure someone to make such an important decision at such a young age especially when you don’t even know yourself yet. It’s not just any decision- you are defining yourself at such a young age. Some people definitely have it easier than others because they were born with a clear talent- for example: drawing, singing, playing soccer, etc. They know that they will use that talent and they have already chosen their path. But then there’s a lot of us that don’t have such an specific gift and we don’t know what we want, we don’t even know our talent so we definitely can’t make a proper decision.
You want to know how I ended up finding my path? I started working; as soon as I graduated I started working as a teacher assistant. Did I know I was good at it? I had no clue, but I had to give it a try. While studying Marketing I was working with a group of 8 year old and that’s when I found out I was good at it; I was good at teaching, grading, interacting with kids and everything that involves educating kids. I started to get interested on how kid’s minds work, why did they behaved certain way- so it hit me- I wanted to become a psychologist I didn’t even finish my third semester in Marketing and I switched to a different University and enrolled in the Psychology degree. I had to experience the world first before being able to discover what I really wanted. And that’s the way it should work, you should not be forced or you shouldn’t have any pressure of any type to make you choose prematurely about any aspect of your life. If you are 16 (or older) and you already know what you want and you are ready to choose, then it’s great! But if you are not sure then you should be able to discover the world in order to be able to find yourself in it. You need to work, try different things and look for diverse experiences and I swear you will end up finding who you really are, and what you really want to do.

As for the questions I had, I was able to answer many of my questions thanks to the fact that I discovered myself while working.

What’s my talent?
Even though, all through middle school and High School I felt like such a loser due to the fact that I was not good at sports and I felt like a failure because I couldn’t sing or draw- I now know I have a talent and maybe more than one: I’ve been able to act, to model and to write passionately. I’m a talented psychologist just as well.

Am I even good at something?
Yes, I’m good at many things. Things that didn’t count as important in High School but are sure important in everyday life. I am good at listening, I am good at helping others, good at giving more than receiving. I am a good person, with strong moral values- and that’s something people lack now.

What am I supposed to do in life?
I think I’m called to inspire, to help and motivate others. I’m supposed to keep discovering myself because that’s and endless pursuit. I’m supposed to be who I already chose and be the best I can be. I’m supposed to live the life I want for me and have my own family because there’s nothing as important as family. That’s my purpose and that’s what I bring to this world. I bring my talents and disposition to make a change- a positive one.

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Am I ever going to fit in?
I’m not sure if I will ever fit in completely, but I know I will never pretend to be someone I’m not to be accepted. When I was way younger and I wanted to please people, I was never taken seriously and I most definitely didn’t have much friends (real friends) but now that I am who I really am and that I have no fear of rejection is when I’ve gained people’s respect and consideration, when I’ve finally come to be more accepted and found real friends who love the real me. And it’s amazing, it’s amazing to be everyone’s first choice, to be wanted for your true self; of course I have enough people who don’t like me but oh, well.. You can’t please everyone- It’s not worth it!

Will I ever be successful?
Of course I will! Why not? I don’t measure success by the amount of money I make now or that I will make in the future, I measure success by how satisfied I feel with what I do, with how much I can help and inspire others, and by the fact that I have no regrets.

Final one-
Where do I belong?
I might not be 100% sure about it.. But I think that I belong wherever I want to be. I belong where I’m happy and satisfied. It doesn’t matter the place, it doesn’t matter where- it just matters how right it feels for me.

Those are my thoughts for today! Remember life is like a puzzle, you need to keep trying until you find the pieces that fit.

Hasta la vista,
Adri❤️

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Everyone is weird.

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I’ve come to realize there is no such thing as being “normal”. Think about it: what does being normal really means?
In my experience, the way I see it being normal is just doing what everyone else does, and just trying to please everyone. But naturally we are all weird, we are all different and there’s no two persons in the earth that are exactly, 100% the same. We might be similar to someone else, but never the same. Since by birth we are different from the rest, that makes us “weird”. And when we are kids we enjoy, we embrace and we love that weirdness. We don’t care what others think and we don’t try to please anyone. We do what we really like, act how we want and enjoy being ourselves, no matter how different we are. Sadly as we grow older we start caring too much about everyone’s opinion and we want to fit in into a society that’s ruled by weird people pretending to be normal- in other words fake people. Yea, we want to make friends and we want to feel “accepted” but that shouldn’t have to turn you into someone totally different to who you are; people who truly love you, will fall inlove with your “weirdness”, they won’t ask you to become someone else. Believe me, you can’t pretend to be someone you are not for too long, and people will find out who you are sooner or later, the ones who liked the fake version of you will end up leaving. So why not embrace who you really are? Why not be proud of being weird? You bring something to the world that no one else does, and you are amazing for that. People who are considered normal are the people who live life filling the standards that others have set for them, it’s basically living a life to please others or living a life where they are repressing who they really are, and when they are old they sit back and look that it wasn’t worth it. Because in my book what’s worth it is being 70 and have no regrets, knowing that I lived my life my way, I did things I wanted, and I did things that pleased me. But I don’t want to be and old, grumpy lady regretting all the things I didn’t do just because society was going to think it was “too weird”.
We should never stop being like kids in that sense, we should be weird and be proud of it. And we should accept everyones weirdness, not judge them. The world would be a different place if we all stop judging and started loving everyone for who they are and not who we want them to be. You need to be who you want to be, and they should be who they want to be. We don’t need to like everyone, but we shouldn’t have to ask them to be different. I love how kids just don’t care, and how they can just become friends of someone who is totally different and play with them, they just accept it and put no conditions. That’s how it should be there should be no rules on how someone must be so they can be accepted.
I’m not saying we should just accept a pedophile, or a serial killer because they are “weird”. Don’t get me wrong, these people have issues and are mentally ill, they have some psychological disorder. But being “weird” is just being different from everyone, and it’s amazing and totally acceptable as long as you are not hurting yourself and others, as long as what makes you different doesn’t put your life or someone else’s life at risk.

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Is it easy to be different? Being different is easy, we were born different. What’s not easy is to accept it and be who you really are. It’s not easy because you aren’t always going to be accepted, people will laugh, people will judge.. But either way that’s going to happen, so don’t let it affect you.
You should put yourself first, YOU should make YOURSELF happy first. In order for you to make others happy, you need to be happy with yourself. If you don’t enjoy who you are you can’t expect others to enjoy your company. And you won’t enjoy who you are if you are being fake, you won’t get to be genuinely happy if you are repressing yourself from who you really are.
I will repeat once more: Be weird, embrace it and be proud of your weirdness. There’s no other one like you and that makes you amazing and important!
I am Adri, I am weird and I love it!

Hasta la vista,
Adri❤️

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