The New Year, New Me Bullsh*t!

Oh boy! 2013 is finally coming to an end. I have so much to say and it is so hard to decide where to start, but I will start by saying one thing I could not be any happier that this year has finally come to an end.

I see 2013 as a dark year for me, I can’t be cynical and say nothing good happened because just the fact that God has granted me with the gift of life is more than enough of a blessing. But this year has got to be the most difficult of all the 22 years of my life. If I look at it from a positive perspective, I would say all this challenges have made me grown into a stronger and more determined woman.And I am starting this new year with many goals and the courage to conquer anything I set my mind into.

Like I said before, this has been a year packed with challenges, some harder than others but honestly they just kept on coming with no break for me. All this challenges taught me that I can’t settle for a no, and I can’t give up no matter how many times life knocks me down. I have learned to put my trust in God, and since I made that decision I can say things have been easier to deal with. I stopped writing for long and now you might be wondering what have I been up to, and I will tell you I have been up to a lot of things! In a few months my life has changed dramatically and to prove that you have missed out on quite a lot I will tell you now I am currently not living in a Third-World Country. AHA! Surprise, surprise! I have accepted a new adventure for this new year and I decided to come to spend some time in USA. Some weeks ago we made the difficult decision to come to America for some undefined period of time. To be exact on Wednesday, December 11th me and my youngest siblings got into a plane that was headed to Washington DC.

You might be thinking “Who wouldn’t want to be in USA?!” and I will answer you “I wouldn’t want to”. Don’t get me wrong, this is a beautiful country with many opportunities, and yea it is way safer than my lovely Honduras but you need to know that there is no place like home. In my next post I will talk especifically about my move from San Pedro Sula, Honduras to New Jersey, USA and I will give you all the details, opinions and everything you need to know about this transition. Right now I just needed to mention about my move so you can have a glimpse of how crazy this year has been for me.

This year has been a challenge to every aspect in my life: family, work, health, my degree and my relationship with my boyfriend. But I am glad it all happened because no matter how cliché it might sound it all made me grow stronger, and it taught me to appreciate all the small things in life. Now I am much closer to my family, I have learned and grow with my boyfriend as a couple, I have learned to be more patient and more grateful. I need to tell you this year I had been getting a bit cold on my faith, and started leaving prayer behind me, but there was one day that it was so difficult for me to deal with, and I thought I was gonna lose it, so instead of sitting and feeling sorry for myself I decided to pray and read the Bible and I found something to hang on to, but it didn’t just restore my faith but this day turn out to be so beautiful and so good to me that it makes it so hard to even describe it. But I just want to say that for the first time in almost 2 years I felt peace, after so much prayer and reading Bible verses I was just gifted with supernatural peace, and ever since that day I have been constant in prayer, so if you believe in God or you are from any religion I would encourage to grow in prayer, because it was the best decision I made this year.

Now, I wont start with the New Year, New me bullshit and no, my resolution wont be to spend 12 hours a day in a gym or to fit into my old clothes, We should not wait for January 1st to set new goals, to improve who we are as humans, to change and move on. Make it your goal to examine yourself every single day of the year and change everything you don’t like. Don’t wait for Monday to start that Diet, why even start a Diet? Why not making it a lifestyle? Yea I have some resolutions but not only because there is a new year, but because I want to change many things in my life. And this time my goals are much less shallow and they are more likely to happen.

It is my goal to be a selfless person. It is my goal to start giving to others instead of sitting down and expecting to receive. It is my goal to be truly happy despite the material things I might or might not have, I want to be truly happy so I can make others happy. It is my goal to learn to be much more patient. It is my goal to not give up on the things my heart truly wants- if it is someone I love, some specific thing that I want I wont give up on me. I want to learn to appreciate even the smallest thing I have, because it is the smallest thing you have that you miss the most once it is gone. I want to learn to let go of things that do not add anything to my life, all those things and people that are just taking space. I want to be more independent and learn that my happiness depends on me and not on people. I want to actually live life and not just let life pass me by without enjoying it. I want to go in adventures, run risks and conquer fears. I want to be less judgemental and more forgiving, because only those who can truly forgive are the ones who can live at peace with themselves. I want to be the best version of me, and be someone who I am proud to be, I want to love me. Because it does not matter how much others love you if you do not love yourself you are uncapable of receiving love.I want to be anxiety free, I want to spend much more time with my loved ones because work is not all. I want to love passionately, to marry my best half and make him the happiest man. I want to be able to travel much and learn a bit from every place I visit. And of course I want to be healthy so I know I need to keep up with the healthy habits, but I do not want to stop enjoying life just because I can gain some pounds! If you are craving Pizza eat that damn Pizza, eat cake, enjoy it and do not have regrets. You shouldn’t set a diet as your goal, your goal should be a healthy and balanced lifestyle. And this is my most important goal: to learn to be balanced in everything I do, because having too much of anything can have negative results. Just aim to find the balance in everything and you will find the key to success.Commit to explore yourself, to find out who you really are and if you do not like it then keep making changes, just stop being unreasonable and know there is no such thing as perfection.We tend to see perfection in others and be harsh on ourselves. So what if the girl next door has blonde,straight, long hair or the body that you dream of? Who tells you she is perfect, she is probably wishing to have something you do have! That is life, we all want something we don’t have, and it is ok you just need to accept we can’t have it all. You should just prioritize and think if those things you are missing is what you truly want, and if they are then fight for it! Never give up, but while you are fighting for your dreams learn to live at peace with what you already have!

Of course I want many material things, I have many shallow desires but they are not my priority. I would love to look like Gisele Bundchen, I would! But is it something reasonable? No! I do not need to look like her to be beautiful or to be happy! Because someone will always find the true beauty in us. Maybe if I looked like Gisele I would not have the boyfriend I have now, because maybe she is not his type (although that seems like a crazy assumption), so I look the way I look for a reason, instead of torturing myself because I am not her, I can make different choices and become the best version of me, and love me!This new year focus on yourself, on your inside before trying to change your outside, before trying to change those around you. Because people will change not because you tell them to, not by what you say but you can always influence them with your actions. Remember your actions are more attractive than your words.

We all have different needs and wants, but one thing I would recommend is instead of making a long list of unreasonable things choose things that you know you can do! Start with the smallest one, little by little you will get where you need to be! Remember it is not the New Year that makes you a new you, it is you who make yourself who you choose to be!

I look forward to a new beginning, to a strong me who will conquer big things!

Happy New Year, I pray and wish for a healthy, happy and succesful 2014 for all!

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Comic version of me and boyfriend saying Happy 2014!

Classifying to the World Cup.

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Four years ago, on this same day Honduras was paralyzed for 90+ mins. Our team was playing against El Salvador on a game that it was all or nothing- we had to win. We were playing for a chance of classifying to the World Cup. We had 28 years of not classifying to the World Cup and this time we were so close to making it. The game was played in Cuscatlan, Salvador. Many people traveled to support our team but of course not everyone could traveled so restaurants, bars, houses in Honduras were packed with people watching the game; streets were empty because everyone was watching the game. I remember it was such a difficult game, the score was 0-0 and everything was looking bad because we didn’t only depend on our score but the score of the match USA-Costa Rica. Costa Rica had to lose and we had to win our game in order for us to classify, but none of that was happening. We were not scoring and Costa Rica was winning 2-0. We were all suffering but not giving up, not losing hopes, and I remember clearly how in the second half on minute 18 my all time favorite player elevated our hopes and scored a great goal against El Salvador. The feeling was amazing we were closer than ever. But our game finished and Costa Rica was still winning against USA, the American thing only had 4 minutes or so to score two goals and send them home. In those 4 minutes Honduras was still paralyzed- now we were watching a different game and cheering for a different team, USA. Our team was still in Cuscatlan the field waiting to hear about the results that were going to decide if we made it or not, people in the stadium were quiet hoping for the best. And in those four minutes miracles happened, USA scored two goals and gave us the ticket to a so long dream of an entire country. When our team received the news in El Salvador’s field people went crazy, celebrating, crying, yelling. Our players started running around, jumping of joy, went on their knees and thanked God, hugged each other, they couldn’t believe it- no one could. After 28 years of not making it to a World Cup, we classified once again, we were in it again.

You might think it’s not a big deal but honestly, you would have to be Honduran to understand. That year was such a difficult year in my country- we had earthquakes (which never happens here), we had several viruses killing people (Influenza H1N1), and severe political issues. And after so many bad things happening to us, after a terrible year our football team was giving us hopes and something to look for. It was God’s way of rewarding us. It was not only happiness, but it was something that was making us feel proud of our country- not everything sucked now.

Football in Honduras is a big deal, we don’t only watch it, we live and love it. It brings the entire country together, and it that moment we are all one big family who is hoping for the same- our team to win.
When our national team plays, our country stops moving and we all get together to watch the game. Stores, banks, Universities- everything is closed except for bars and restaurants where you can watch the game. That day everyone is smiling, excited and dressed up in blue and white which is our flag colors, you can also see flags everywhere- cars, houses, banks, malls, etc.
We feel that is more than just a game that we are winning- it just takes our minds off our daily issues. All the deaths, unemployment, violence, corruption; they are all gone for those 90 minutes our team is playing. We are all one big family no matter gender, age or social status. There’s probably nothing that unites our country as much as football does.
We might not have the best team in the world, and we might not be as good as Spain but there’s something you won’t find in some other teams and we got it- our players give out their hearts in the field. They play with passion. And even though we don’t win every single match, it’s such a joy to see them play. We might be pessimistic about everything that happens here but we never are when it comes to our football team, and even when there’s no chances to win we never give up our hopes. And when we win it’s an endless party, you will find people out in the streets celebrating ’til 4 am, hugging complete strangers and drinking all night long.

There’s nothing like living a game in Honduras, and it’s contagious. You can find many foreigners celebrating with us, for our team. It’s impossible to describe or explain why, but there’s something special about watching a game in Honduras. It’s an adventure, it’s an experience full of passion and joy. You can find people who don’t cheer as much for their country as they do for Honduras. I’ve had friends from different places being just as passionate about our team as we are, and when I ask them if they were just as passionate about their national team their answer is no; and they can’t explain why they feel so good to cheer for our team. It’s a mystery but it’s just amazing.

Tomorrow we have a very important match, and it will basically decide if we classify to the World Cup or not, we play against Jamaica. But just like last time, it doesn’t only depend on our score. Costa Rica is playing against a very strong Mexico. In order for us to classify Honduras must win and Mexico must lose against Costa Rica. We are crossing fingers already, and tomorrow is the day when our country will be paralyzed.
If you ask a Honduran who their national heroes are, and who is most respected- it won’t be a politician or the president, it’s our National Football Team. They unite us, they give us joy and hopes of something better, they never fail to make our country happy. Hopefully tomorrow won’t be the exception, and even if things don’t go as planned we have so many reasons to love our team. But we want to cry tears of joy tomorrow, just like we did four years ago!

Vamos mi “H”! Brazil 2014 is more than a dream!
Hasta la vista,
Adri ❤️

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Singing in the shower.

I have a hidden passion that not everyone knows about- I love music. I am constantly asking God why didn’t he gifted me with an amazing voice. I know, we all love music and it’s a big part of our lives; but I am truly passionate about it, I LOVE music and I can’t go more than an hour without listening to music. I enjoy taking a shower mostly because I get to perform without people complaining about my voice, haha. Being a singer was my first dream as a kid, I would sing all the time, and when I was a kid my voice didn’t sound that bad (at least no one complained about me having a horrible voice). I remember that during my elementary years I was part of the school’s choir, and then on middle school I was part of my school’s band; I was obviously not the main attraction but I got to sing many times and it was amazing. Now, I am conscious of my not-so-beautiful voice and I don’t torture people by forcing them to hear my song, haha. But music is always a part of my life; just like everyone, I enjoy music, I need music all day, everyday to relax, to improve my mood or just to feel understood. Yes, sometimes the only way I feel understood is through a song. And sometimes the only way I have of communicating is through a song- doesn’t it happen to you? Sometimes you are so overwhelmed, so confused, you have so many things in your mind and yet not one reasonable sentence comes out of your mouth, but then you listen to a song and you connect to it, you feel that it says all you’ve been trying to say, and suddenly that songs fit you perfectly. And what’s amazing about music is that you’ll always find one song that fits you- ALWAYS! No matter what mood you are in, no matter the situation or what you are dealing with you’ll always find a song that will be “just right” for an specific moment.
Music is so powerful, because just like you can find a song that goes perfectly with your mood, just as well you can discover how a song can AFFECT your mood. Call me crazy, but music has the power of changing your mood- good or bad. It happens to me all of the time. I remember so many mornings when I was on my way to work with my friend, we are obviously not morning persons and whenever we had to wake up way too early we would be in such a bad mood but then we would turn on the radio, look for a good song and in matter of seconds we were dancing, yelling out the song and just dramatizing the song. Did we look crazy and ridiculous? Yes, of course, all of the people in other cars would be staring at us, giving us crazy looks. But it didn’t matter, now we had the energy to start of a day- just by singing a song at loud. And you can also be affected in a totally opposite way, if you are feeling great but for some reason you start listening to very soft songs, or the heartbreak songs you will find yourself feeling sad, and suddenly you are not feeling energetic.
And this is not only things I just made up, but it’s actually proven. I remember learning a bit about the topic when I started my psychology degree, and they would give us examples on how music can affect your mood and how restaurants and supermarket and different business take advantage of that; when the place is full they put on happy music, the one that makes you wanna dance- why? Because that music makes you move faster, gives you energy in some way. So when the place is full they need you to be faster, to shop faster and to leave so you can make space for the
people who are coming in. And then when the place is relatively empty they switch to slow pace music, because they want you to take your time and look at everything they offer and you always end up taking something that you didn’t plan.
Another example on music’s power is when you are a baby- it is very common that they recommend pregnant women to put on some Mozart or Beethoven for the baby to listen to it even when it’s just inside the belly. It can help their babies once they are born in so many ways. For example: if the mother puts music to the baby while she is pregnant to use it as relaxation, when the baby is born and the baby starts crying if the mother puts on the same song the baby will start calming himself down, because it will remind him of the days he was inside the belly and will make him feel protected. Also, you can train your baby. If when you are pregnant you put some music before going to sleep every night then once the baby is born he can get into the routine of going to sleep every time he listens to that same music.

Music has so many health benefits and the good thing is that it’s cheaper than medicine AND it doesn’t have side effects. Scientist are still studying why or how exactly does it help, but one thing that everyone knows is how it reduces stress and anxiety- and that is pretty amazing because anxiety and stress tend to cause you so many different and unexpected sickness and if you reduce it then chances are you won’t be getting sick oftenly.

Music also unites people.

This is so true, and maybe you would think that it only unites teens who feel connected to so many other teens they don’t know just because they are all inlove with One Direction or Justin Bieber; but music unites all types of people, regardless their age, gender or race. Maybe you are a 20 year old who likes Maroon 5 or Justin Timberlake, or a 50 year old who loves Elton John or a guy who loves Metallica. But either way, if you go to a concert of your favorite artist or group you will end up connecting to thousands and thousands of strangers that feel similar to you, and you won’t care you don’t know them at all but in that moment they will be your family, your friends who are connected by music.

Music is one of God’s greatest gift and you have music for your great days, special days like your wedding, bad days like when you broke up with your boyfriend- any day, any time. Sometimes you don’t need to understand things and you just need to feel it, feel it in every part of your body and that’s how music works and that’s what music is for.
That’s why artists should stop making crappy music, singing songs that have no meaning and acting stupid just to become more popular. They should sing meaningful music, write lyrics to which people will identify and prove that you want to inspire not just sell records. Sometimes songs are not the problem but it’s the artist who doesn’t have the passion that the song requires. When you hear a song you should not only hear the original version, you should listen to the covers. You can always find tons of suggestions of people who made covers to “x” song on YouTube, and if you give it a try you won’t be disappointed. Sometimes the greatest talent, the real artist are not the ones who are making millions of dollars for a record and have more popularity. Now a days, the real talent is yet undiscovered and it’s mostly because people don’t take a minute and don’t give the chance to listen to those artist who don’t have much fans, to those artist who are recording from a laptop camera in their rooms.
I take time to listen to new talent, and I’ve found a way of discovering so many talented people- through Vine believe it or not there’s more than just funny vines, but you will also find new artist playing their songs or covers.
I have a new favorite artist, his name is Joey. I am trying to contact him for an interview because I’ve been following him and his sister on vine for a while, they both sing and let me tell you their last cover just blew my away. I couldn’t stop listening to the song, I kept on repeating and getting goose bumps, it was just amazing. Hopefully soon I’ll be posting my first interview about the talented siblings.

Remember, find music that will affect you in a positive way. Music that will inspire you, don’t stick to something just because everyone is listening to it. You will find the real power of music once you start opening yourself to things that are new- not only the popular. Of course there’s a lot of very talented artist who ARE already popular, but not because you see them on MTV means that they are good.

Turn on the radio, sit back and enjoy the music, feel it, fall inlove with it..

You can listen to Joey and his sister, Jessi here

Hasta la vista,
Adri ❤️

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Living in the world’s most dangerous city.

I don’t know if you knew this or not but San Pedro Sula (the city where I live) has been chosen more than once as the world’s most dangerous city. Now, I have no idea who decides which is the most dangerous city and what information do they use exactly to make such a decision. But to be chosen as the most dangerous city out of more than 4,000 cities in the world it’s something is pretty big in the worst way possible. (I don’t know what’s the accurate number of cities in the world but you can have an idea here )
I don’t know how is it to live in a my other country or city, I don’t know if there is truly no place as unsafe as my beautiful San Pedro but I would like to think we are not the only ones that are being dominated by violence.
I want to give you an introduction to what it’s like to live in Honduras. This is such a beautiful place and has so many beautiful people; we are warm, nice, loving and very charismatic people, and you will always find people smiling when you walk in the streets.
I’ve lived here for 21 years- that’s all my life. I remember growing up in a city where I could play on the street, where I could sit outside and enjoy nature and enjoy life. I remember growing up surrounded by beautiful people, where even strangers would stretch out a hand to help you out, where you could sit and talk to someone you just met on a mall, on the street or anywhere and you could just enjoy a nice conversation. But as I grew older it has become harder and harder to do those things and be spontaneous and go out and become friends with total strangers on the street. In some way I feel like Dora the Explorer (haha) because I had much more freedom as a kid than I do now as an adult. Not because my parents don’t let me have that freedom but it’s more due to the fact that violence doesn’t allow me to live freely.
Do you know what’s like to wake up everyday and find in the newspapers that there were at least 3 heartless murders while you were sleeping? That’s what we live daily. I can’t remember the last time I saw a newspaper and there wasn’t at least three news talking about some murder or some kidnapping. When I was younger we had to live some violent days, we had a hard period where gangsters would take over parts of the city and make a hell out of it, or they started kidnapping people and ask for outrageous amounts of money in order to return the victim and they would just end up killing that person if you paid or not. It wasn’t a nice season for us, but we were able to overcome those days and didn’t let gangsters keep us from living life and enjoying, we didn’t let them rule over us. But it’s been quite a few years since a new issue has been affecting us- that’s drug cartels. I can only compare these last years to the era of Pablo Escobar in the 80’s and early 90’s in Colombia. If you are a Colombian, you will understand exactly what I mean. It’s amazing how powerful and how indestructible this “business” is. It has taken over out country and unlike Colombia we have no honest authorities, we don’t have people who will stand up for our country and say “it’s been ENOUGH”. All the powerful people who can actually do something about it are being bribed and rather think for the moment receiving money from this people instead of thinking long term and realize that if they keep letting this drug “lords” do what they please in a future there would be no way of actually living in here. And it would be such a waste- such a beautiful place will just become uninhabitable. It’s already hard to survive, it’s already sad how we live I just can’t imagine how it will be 5 years from now.
Where I live the pizza is delivered faster than the police would ever react to an emergency. Why? Is it become they are THAT useless? No, it’s mostly because they are being paid by the same guys who go around destroying, murdering and doing all sort of illegal things you could think of. You can’t ever trust the police, because most likely they will end up doing the job the bad guys started. Instead of feeling safe you feel scared around them.
It’s no secret that we have a pretty bad economy, and salaries are so low. There are places in my country where people are so poor that a family of four people has to survive with only $1 or $2 a day; yes, with only $2 top. Have you ever have to feed your family with only two dollars? Me neither. And of course people get tired of being miserable, they don’t want to forever live like that. There’s no way the government supports them, we have no shelters or places where we can get free food at least for a day. There’s no scholarships to help this people who don’t have a chance of receiving higher education. There’s not enough employments, there’s not enough opportunities to help you be successful. If you were born poor, it takes more than just hard, painful work to change that. So with all that being said, it’s easy to understand how many people out there choose the easier way and start working for this drug dealers who offer them so much more money than they would get if they had a regular job. But at what cost? Risking their lives? Having to be a heartless person who would be able to kill an entire family, who would not think twice and kill a man in front of his sons, leaving lots of empty homes, making it impossible for decent people to go outside. I’ve obviously never been in their shoes, I’ve never lived a life as hard as them so I don’t know if being extremely poor is reason enough to work as a hitman. I am not even sure anymore if they really do it because of their extreme poverty or there’s some sick reason behind it but there are men who are hired to murder someone and in exchange they receive $25. Yes, that’s the prize they put on life in my country.
We have such a bad cycle of issues- corruption, poverty, drug dealing. It’s an endless cycle. People won’t ever have a clean chance to improve, to succeed in life, to be someone better because our country is being lead by selfish people who have no interest in our people, but only care to make their own fortunes grow bigger, and then this same insane need of our political leaders to become richer and on the other hand the extreme poverty and ignorance of others pushes them to ally to the drug dealers and form this partnership to work for the wrong reasons and goals.

There’s so much to tell about this topic that an entry wouldn’t be enough. I will be writing and explaining more to depth in the future.

Hasta la vista,
Adri ❤️

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23 reasons to be thankful today.

So today is October 2nd, 2013. That means my penguin is turning 23 (even though Skype says it’s his 22nd birthday) haha
In honor of his birthday number 23 I will make a list of the 23 things that make him so special and perfect, so here we go:

1. He is hot. He is not just hot but he is like seriously HOT.
2. He is smart. He is probably the smartest person I know, in every sense. He blows me away daily because he can solve things so easily, and when it’s hard for him to solve something then I know that’s a big problem.
3. He is funny. That was quite a surprise for me, because he looks so serious and then when you get to know him you realize he has a great sense of humor.
4. He is adventurous. He will sign up for any adventure and I know that we’ll be going on lots of crazy adventures through life.
5. He is random. I love this about him (most of the time) because he doesn’t go on a routine and he will surprise me when I least expect it, and that’s a great way to never get bored.
6. His eyes. I think he has the most beautiful eyes someone could have- I still can’t tell if they are blue or gray or green haha they are just so unique and cute.
7. He is a gangster. Of course he is not really a gangster but he has the soul of one. And he is just so cute when he starts talking like some rap singer.
8. He is one of a kind. There’s not two like him- from the way he dresses up to the way he acts he is just something else. He is not afraid to be himself and that makes me love and admire him even more.
9. He is an athlete. Well he likes to run and runs pretty fast. For some reason I like that in him, and it keeps him healthy and in a very sexy shape.
10. He loves beer. I love that we can just sit together and have some beers and he won’t get stupidly drunk and embarrass me. We can just chill and enjoy together.
11. He is patient. At least when it comes to waiting for me- he has been waiting for me to move in with him for a long time and he still doesn’t give up.
12. He is a winner. He doesn’t just settle for little, he goes all the way for the best.
13. He admits his mistakes. My baby is man enough to admit when he is wrong, to admit when he did a mistake; and it makes me proud of him because only great people can admit they failed.
14. He is a good listener. I love how amazing he is and how much he loves listening to my stories- I feel good when I talk to him because I know he actually enjoys to listen to me without complaining about my nonsense and all the crazy stories.
15. He is lazy. I love it when he is lazy and just wants to cuddle in bed. I know we will have many Sundays where we will only stay in our pjs all day.
16. He loves movies. He keeps me updated with the latest movies and makes the best recommendations.
17. His hair. Well, he actually has no hair- and that makes him hotter. If you want to picture him just think of Vin Diesel or Bruce Willis he rocks that look just as good if not better.
18. He is a badass. When I am with him he makes me feel so safe, I know he would protect me of anyone if he had to and he would fight whoever he needed to and he would always back me up in any given situation.
19. He is a bookworm- I’ve never seen someone get so into books and enjoy them as much as he does. He makes the best choices; he doesn’t choose just the typical book everyone would- he is more interesting than the rest.
20. He is good at saving yet he is not cheap. This particular characteristic makes me love him so much. I am bad at saving money, but he has make me improve in that sense, lead by example I’ve learned and I’ve been motivated to save money for our future. He would spend money on us, give me special and expensive treats but he won’t waste his money stupidly which is great if you want to ever be financially stable.
21. He is an amazing lover. (No need to explain, he knows it).
22. He is the most loving person. He can seem so tough but yet has the best heart anyone could have. He is so kind hearted that it melts my heart.
23. He loves me like no one could. I am not exaggerating but I could never receive as much love as I receive from him, and I will be thank him forever for that.

If someone wants the recipe for the perfect man they would need to talk to my mother-in-law. I don’t know what or how she did it but I will be forever thankful that she made such a hottie and raise him up to be the man of my dreams.

To my man, on his birthday.
I hope you enjoyed this and I hope you have an amazing day today. If I had to I would choose you a million times. There’s nothing I want more than spending the rest of your birthdays together, I can’t wait to grow old with you and even then you would still be my hottie, my handsome, my man! Thank you for making of my world a better place.

“If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you.”

Love you forever and always my penguin! ❤️

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Where do I belong?

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Where do I belong?
I remember asking myself this question constantly since I was a teenager, I am not sure I have the answer to it yet, but I want to believe I am closer to finding it now.
As a teenager I always felt that I didn’t fit in, I was not confident and I was lost. I always had so many doubts and so many questions like: what’s my talent? Am I even good at something? What am I supposed to do in life? What do I bring to this world? Am I ever going to “fit in”? What’s my purpose? Will I ever be successful? Where do I belong??

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I never thought I was going to find an answer to all the doubts I had, I felt like a failure and I started being afraid of the future. When I graduated Highschool I had no clue what I was supposed to do next, but guided by what society tells me I enrolled to the most expensive College in the city and decided I wanted to get a Marketing degree (me? Marketing? WHAT?). I have not enough creativity to be in such an area, it was a huge mistake. I obviously failed bad at it, but what can you expect? #1 I had to decide what I wanted to be in life when I was only 16 years old! And the problem is that if you graduate Highschool when you are only sixteen years old you think you are pretty badass, you probably think you are some sort of genius; but then you get to College and think “How the hell did they let me graduate and get to College this fast?!”.
#2We are living in a time where High School education might be a waste of time, because honestly: what do you learn? They don’t even push you to THINK, you don’t learn to deal with real life problems, and they don’t help you to discover yourself. Don’t get me wrong because I’m not saying you don’t learn useful stuff, because you do learn a few things that are important and will help you. But if I spent so many years studying I would hope that once I graduate I am at least a bit ready to face this world, and sadly that’s not the case- you are not ready.

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In my country, society expects you to decide what degree you want as soon as you graduate High School, they want you to choose your path, and decide who and what you want to be for the rest of your life. It’s really stupid to force or pressure someone to make such an important decision at such a young age especially when you don’t even know yourself yet. It’s not just any decision- you are defining yourself at such a young age. Some people definitely have it easier than others because they were born with a clear talent- for example: drawing, singing, playing soccer, etc. They know that they will use that talent and they have already chosen their path. But then there’s a lot of us that don’t have such an specific gift and we don’t know what we want, we don’t even know our talent so we definitely can’t make a proper decision.
You want to know how I ended up finding my path? I started working; as soon as I graduated I started working as a teacher assistant. Did I know I was good at it? I had no clue, but I had to give it a try. While studying Marketing I was working with a group of 8 year old and that’s when I found out I was good at it; I was good at teaching, grading, interacting with kids and everything that involves educating kids. I started to get interested on how kid’s minds work, why did they behaved certain way- so it hit me- I wanted to become a psychologist I didn’t even finish my third semester in Marketing and I switched to a different University and enrolled in the Psychology degree. I had to experience the world first before being able to discover what I really wanted. And that’s the way it should work, you should not be forced or you shouldn’t have any pressure of any type to make you choose prematurely about any aspect of your life. If you are 16 (or older) and you already know what you want and you are ready to choose, then it’s great! But if you are not sure then you should be able to discover the world in order to be able to find yourself in it. You need to work, try different things and look for diverse experiences and I swear you will end up finding who you really are, and what you really want to do.

As for the questions I had, I was able to answer many of my questions thanks to the fact that I discovered myself while working.

What’s my talent?
Even though, all through middle school and High School I felt like such a loser due to the fact that I was not good at sports and I felt like a failure because I couldn’t sing or draw- I now know I have a talent and maybe more than one: I’ve been able to act, to model and to write passionately. I’m a talented psychologist just as well.

Am I even good at something?
Yes, I’m good at many things. Things that didn’t count as important in High School but are sure important in everyday life. I am good at listening, I am good at helping others, good at giving more than receiving. I am a good person, with strong moral values- and that’s something people lack now.

What am I supposed to do in life?
I think I’m called to inspire, to help and motivate others. I’m supposed to keep discovering myself because that’s and endless pursuit. I’m supposed to be who I already chose and be the best I can be. I’m supposed to live the life I want for me and have my own family because there’s nothing as important as family. That’s my purpose and that’s what I bring to this world. I bring my talents and disposition to make a change- a positive one.

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Am I ever going to fit in?
I’m not sure if I will ever fit in completely, but I know I will never pretend to be someone I’m not to be accepted. When I was way younger and I wanted to please people, I was never taken seriously and I most definitely didn’t have much friends (real friends) but now that I am who I really am and that I have no fear of rejection is when I’ve gained people’s respect and consideration, when I’ve finally come to be more accepted and found real friends who love the real me. And it’s amazing, it’s amazing to be everyone’s first choice, to be wanted for your true self; of course I have enough people who don’t like me but oh, well.. You can’t please everyone- It’s not worth it!

Will I ever be successful?
Of course I will! Why not? I don’t measure success by the amount of money I make now or that I will make in the future, I measure success by how satisfied I feel with what I do, with how much I can help and inspire others, and by the fact that I have no regrets.

Final one-
Where do I belong?
I might not be 100% sure about it.. But I think that I belong wherever I want to be. I belong where I’m happy and satisfied. It doesn’t matter the place, it doesn’t matter where- it just matters how right it feels for me.

Those are my thoughts for today! Remember life is like a puzzle, you need to keep trying until you find the pieces that fit.

Hasta la vista,
Adri❤️

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Everyone is weird.

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I’ve come to realize there is no such thing as being “normal”. Think about it: what does being normal really means?
In my experience, the way I see it being normal is just doing what everyone else does, and just trying to please everyone. But naturally we are all weird, we are all different and there’s no two persons in the earth that are exactly, 100% the same. We might be similar to someone else, but never the same. Since by birth we are different from the rest, that makes us “weird”. And when we are kids we enjoy, we embrace and we love that weirdness. We don’t care what others think and we don’t try to please anyone. We do what we really like, act how we want and enjoy being ourselves, no matter how different we are. Sadly as we grow older we start caring too much about everyone’s opinion and we want to fit in into a society that’s ruled by weird people pretending to be normal- in other words fake people. Yea, we want to make friends and we want to feel “accepted” but that shouldn’t have to turn you into someone totally different to who you are; people who truly love you, will fall inlove with your “weirdness”, they won’t ask you to become someone else. Believe me, you can’t pretend to be someone you are not for too long, and people will find out who you are sooner or later, the ones who liked the fake version of you will end up leaving. So why not embrace who you really are? Why not be proud of being weird? You bring something to the world that no one else does, and you are amazing for that. People who are considered normal are the people who live life filling the standards that others have set for them, it’s basically living a life to please others or living a life where they are repressing who they really are, and when they are old they sit back and look that it wasn’t worth it. Because in my book what’s worth it is being 70 and have no regrets, knowing that I lived my life my way, I did things I wanted, and I did things that pleased me. But I don’t want to be and old, grumpy lady regretting all the things I didn’t do just because society was going to think it was “too weird”.
We should never stop being like kids in that sense, we should be weird and be proud of it. And we should accept everyones weirdness, not judge them. The world would be a different place if we all stop judging and started loving everyone for who they are and not who we want them to be. You need to be who you want to be, and they should be who they want to be. We don’t need to like everyone, but we shouldn’t have to ask them to be different. I love how kids just don’t care, and how they can just become friends of someone who is totally different and play with them, they just accept it and put no conditions. That’s how it should be there should be no rules on how someone must be so they can be accepted.
I’m not saying we should just accept a pedophile, or a serial killer because they are “weird”. Don’t get me wrong, these people have issues and are mentally ill, they have some psychological disorder. But being “weird” is just being different from everyone, and it’s amazing and totally acceptable as long as you are not hurting yourself and others, as long as what makes you different doesn’t put your life or someone else’s life at risk.

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Is it easy to be different? Being different is easy, we were born different. What’s not easy is to accept it and be who you really are. It’s not easy because you aren’t always going to be accepted, people will laugh, people will judge.. But either way that’s going to happen, so don’t let it affect you.
You should put yourself first, YOU should make YOURSELF happy first. In order for you to make others happy, you need to be happy with yourself. If you don’t enjoy who you are you can’t expect others to enjoy your company. And you won’t enjoy who you are if you are being fake, you won’t get to be genuinely happy if you are repressing yourself from who you really are.
I will repeat once more: Be weird, embrace it and be proud of your weirdness. There’s no other one like you and that makes you amazing and important!
I am Adri, I am weird and I love it!

Hasta la vista,
Adri❤️

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The Liebster Blog Award

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Hi friends! This is a especial post to thank the very amazing The Baby-Making Chronicles . She nominated me for a Liebster Award, and I feel more than honored since she is one of my favorite bloggers! Thank you, it means a lot to me that YOU thought of me when nominating.

I’m listing the award rules here (which I just decided to borrow from her post)

THE RULES

1. You must link back the person who nominated you.
2. You must answer the 10 questions given to you by the nominee before you.
3. You must nominate 10 of your favorite blogs with less than 200 followers and notify them of their nomination.
4. You must come up with 10 questions for your nominees to answer.

Here are my nominees:
1. Those Voices in my Head
2.Short for Caterina
3.Blue Bead Publications
4.Marlon Video Blog
5. Adventures Of The Rogue Academic
6.Lexie Page Talks
7.Becks
8.Not the Family Business
9.Misifusa’s Blog
10.On The Homefront

My Questions to my amazing nominees are:

1. What is your greatest passion?
2. What made you start a blog?
3. Where do you get your inspiration from?
4. What do you do to entertain yourself on boring days?
5. Favorite book?
6. Favorite movie?
7. Most exciting experience in your life?
8. What do you hate the most doing?
9. Your dream place to live and why?
10. Is this where you thought you’d be in life at this age?

My answers to The Baby-Making Chronicles questions:

1. What made you start a blog?
I have always had a passion for writing, ever since I learned how to write when I was six years old. And a few months ago I decided to give it a try again, and just use it as therapy/catharsis to deal with my anxiety.

2. How has blogging impacted your life?
Personally I feel very blessed to be able to have a blog, and to be able to have people read and get interested on my writing. I finally feel that I’m good enough for something and it’s been rewarding so far!

3. What are you passionate about?
I’m passionate about many things in life, I am a very passionate girl. But my greatest passion is writing.
Acting, psychology and working with kids it’s my passion as well.

4. Life-defining moment?
Ah, that’s a tough one! Haha..
Dating my boyfriend would be one- because it’s something that sooner or later would change my life , literally. I will be moving to a different country, different family, different everything.
And being diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, because it has affected the way I live life, and the way I see it.

5. Marooned on a deserted island, what three things would you want with you?
A notebook to write on, an iPod to listen to music (if there was a way to charge it) and my boyfriend.

6. What’s the most outrageous thing you have ever done?
It would probably be acting on a play, in my country’s most famous theater. It was their 40th anniversary play, so no need to say how important it was. Even though it was very rewarding it was very embarrassing since I didn’t like to have all eyes on me. Weird feeling.. Haha.

7. What was the last thing you purchased over $100?
A medical exam.

8. What’s the last stamp on your passport?
Guatemala

9. Favorite quote?
“One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain.”
― Bob Marley

10. All-time favorite blog?
“The Single Woman”

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Living with Anxiety.

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I’m a psychology student about to graduate. I’ve been studying so many disorders throughout these past years, some are common and some are not. But it seems like the “Anxiety Disorder”is way more common than I thought. In the days I had to study and research about that specific disorder, learning all about it, I didn’t think it was that big of a deal, I thought it was one of the easiest disorders to deal with. One year later- 2012- life decided to make me regret my words and put me on test being diagnosed with an anxiety disorder.
There is more than one type of Anxiety Disorders:
•Generalized anxiety disorder (GAD)
•Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD)
•Panic disorder
•Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)
•Social phobia (or social anxiety disorder)

So ok, Anxiety is normal; many people, if not basically everyone, experiences anxiety in their life. Why? Because is a reaction to stress, and who doesn’t experience some stress in life. But when does it become a DISORDER? It becomes a disorder when it becomes too much excessive, when it actually affects you on a daily basis, when it affects you mentally, physically, emotionally and when it affects the way you live life.

I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder on March 2012. Everyone, including me, thought that since I already had knowledge about the topic and being a psychologist it wasn’t going to affect me much, and it was going to be as if I didn’t suffered from such disorder. But, Oh God, we couldn’t have been more wrong. More than one year later, I’m still struggling.

What causes people to suffer from this?
I haven’t find the exact answer to this question, but here is something I found and think will give you a close idea:

Scientists currently think that, like heart disease and type 1 diabetes, mental illnesses are complex and probably result from a combination of genetic, environmental, psychological, and developmental factors. For instance, although NIMH-sponsored studies of twins and families suggest that genetics play a role in the development of some anxiety disorders, problems such as PTSD are triggered by trauma. Genetic studies may help explain why some people exposed to trauma develop PTSD and others do not.
Several parts of the brain are key actors in the production of fear and anxiety. Using brain imaging technology and neurochemical techniques, scientists have discovered that the amygdala and the hippocampus play significant roles in most anxiety disorders.

So, as you can see they haven’t find one specific cause, and that makes it harder for people like me because since they don’t know the exact cause there is not one accurate “cure” to it. It’s not like you can run to the doctor and get a couple of shots and boom, you are free!
There is obviously some treatment options to help you deal with it, but as my psychologist says- there is no cure, once you have it you can only learn how to live with it and reduce the effects but never get ride of it.

Let me tell you a bit more about the specific anxiety disorder I deal with.

All of us worry about things like health, money, or family problems. But people with generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) are extremely worried about these and many other things, even when there is little or no reason to worry about them. They are very anxious about just getting through the day. They think things will always go badly. At times, worrying keeps people with GAD from doing everyday tasks.

(NIH, NATIONAL INSTITUTE OF MENTAL HEALTH)

Generalized anxiety disorder (or GAD) is characterized by excessive, exaggerated anxiety and worry about everyday life events with no obvious reasons for worry. People with symptoms of generalized anxiety disorder tend to always expect disaster and can’t stop worrying about health, money, family, work, or school. In people with GAD, the worry is often unrealistic or out of proportion for the situation. Daily life becomes a constant state of worry, fear, and dread. Eventually, the anxiety so dominates the person’s thinking that it interferes with daily functioning, including work, school, social activities, and relationships

(WEBMD)

And what are the symptoms?
GAD affects the way a person thinks, but the anxiety can lead to physical symptoms, as well. Symptoms of GAD can include:

•Excessive, ongoing worry and tension
•An unrealistic view of problems
•Restlessness or a feeling of being “edgy”
•Irritability
•Muscle tension
•Headaches
•Sweating
•Difficulty concentrating
•Nausea
•The need to go to the bathroom frequently
•Tiredness
•Trouble falling or staying asleep
•Trembling
•Being easily startled
In addition, people with GAD often have other anxiety disorders (such as panic disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and phobias), suffer from depression, and/or try to self-medicate by using drugs or alcohol.
(WEBMD)

Let me tell you in easier words, and exactly my experience.
I started off with panic attacks- I could totally do a post just talking about panic attacks so I’ll be as brief and accurate as possible.

Panic attacks are periods of intense fear or apprehension that are of sudden onset[1] and of variable duration from minutes to hours. Panic attacks usually begin abruptly, may reach a peak within 10 minutes, but may continue for much longer if the sufferer had the attack triggered by a situation from which they are not able to escape. Sufferers of panic attacks often report a fear or sense of dying, “going crazy,” or experiencing a heart attack or “flashing vision,” feeling faint or nauseated, a numb sensation throughout the body, heavy breathing (and almost always, hyperventilation), or losing control of themselves. The most common symptoms may include trembling, dyspnea (shortness of breath), heart palpitations, chest pain (or chest tightness), hot flashes, cold flashes, burning sensations (particularly in the facial or neck area), sweating, nausea, dizziness (or slight vertigo), light-headedness, hyperventilation, paresthesias (tingling sensations), sensations of choking or smothering, difficulty moving and derealization. These physical symptoms are interpreted with alarm in people prone to panic attacks. This results in increased anxiety, and forms a positive feedback loop.

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My first panic attack happened one day at College, it was obviously very unexpected and I was walking to one of my classes when suddenly I started feeling as if I couldn’t breath at all, I thought it was due to the fact that I ran up to the third floor of the building to get to class, but it was definitely too intense. So I just got out of class, called my dad and just asked him to pick me up, we went to the hospital got some pills that would help me relax for a few days and it was all good. After that I suffered from a severe panic attack where I couldn’t move my hands, my heart was beating so fast, I couldn’t breath and I thought I was dying, so I was hospitalized and diagnosed with what you now know. I started a psychological therapy and I had the option of taking some medication to help me deal with it easier. I was recommended to stop studying and working and take a break so I could process everything, relax and start over with things once I was feeling better and stronger. But I said no to both of the last options. I decided to not take any medication, because I thought I should learn to deal with it without the need of a pill, without having to risk myself to become addicted or dependent to some pill and having a pill control me. And usually every medication ends up affecting you in some way and then you need some other medication to help you with what the last one did. So I didn’t want that, just the same I didn’t want to stop my life, I thought I was being a coward if I stopped and try to get healthy. I didn’t want to take the easy way and I didn’t want to get behind with life.
Psychotherapy worked amazingly for me for the first month or so, and I reduced the amount of panic attacks and anxiety I had. So, I thought I don’t need it anymore and even tho the therapy was not over I stopped going. One month later I started going back to therapy and I was feeling lost, much worse than before and depressed. So the psychologist ask me to visit the doctor and the doctor pre scripted some medication- and since he knew I was against it he recommended a very chill pill (haha) that wasn’t as half as strong as the usual anxiety medication but that still causes a positive reaction. I kept going to therapy and taking my medication, so once again I was in control of myself. By last December things started getting difficult in my life and ever since life keeps testing me in the worst possible ways, and it’s been no good for my anxiety disorder. I have not been to therapy for so long, Im still taking pills occasionally but only as emergency exit, on extreme occasions. But after so many things going on, so much pressure and all in the last couple of months I’m again losing control and my sanity. Now my disorder is worse than it’s ever been, it’s hard for me to go to the mall because I start having panic attacks, running errands and doing the things I’ve always done such as going to College and work cause me panic attacks very often. I now get easily frustrated and very much irritated. So then I get depressed because I feel pathetic and I feel like a failure because now I have a very hard time to do stuff I used to do always.
Now I regret not taking a break from work and College since the very beginning, because in this moment I’m mentally, physically, emotionally, and psychologically drained and exhausted. And now I feel at my weakest point, not having enough strength to get up and fight. And it’s now more than ever that I need that strength and courage because it’s been these days the days that I’ve had to go through so many challenges and so many test life has put on my way.. You can’t imagine how horrible it’s to wake up and hate the life you are living, wake up thinking about all the thins you need to do during the day and thinking “will I be able to fulfill these tasks?” And then completing your checklist but painfully, ending the day tired, exhausted and unhappy, because you fought all day against anxiety just to be able to do simple things like buying groceries.
I need to get things in order in my life, and complete my therapy and medication the way it should have been done, I have to do it once and for all, so I don’t have to fall and fail again. I need to do it for my family who are the ones who run and save me everytime I’m feeling at my weakest, the ones who suffer because they want to see me happy. And I have to do it for me- because I am one young lady with a promising future and I deserve a healthy stress/anxiety free life. I need to be able to enjoy the little things that right now are stressing me and giving me anxiety. I need to be able to fight for what I want, to do what I need to do to succeed in life and not having a disorder holding me back from my dreams in life. I need to do it, I need to believe I can be the girl I was before this hit me, and not only be that girl but be the best version of me that I ever was, because I deserve it, because the world needs it.

Hasta la vista,
Adri ❤

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Here are some links so you can read where I got some of the information from. It’s very accurate and very well explained. So if you are interested about knowing more, please don’t hesitate to ask me questions and click the links below.

http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/anxiety-disorders/index.shtml

http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/generalized-anxiety-disorder-gad/index.shtml

http://www.m.webmd.com/a-to-z-guides/generalized-anxiety-disorder

http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Panic_attack

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*Terms provided are taken from the links above- NIMH,WEBMD AND WIKIPEDIA.

Long distance.

I have no idea why, but I think when God made me he said “this girl has something in special in her that will let her handle long distance relationships”. And when I say long distance relationships, I don’t mean only boyfriend wise. I have all sorts of long distance relationships: one of my best friends, boyfriend, mom and other important people in my life. And you must be thinking “I bet she is some sort of expert and handling distance” and I will tell you you are so wrong, my friend.
My first long distance relationship was with one of my best friends. She is native from Philippines but she came to Honduras due to her parent’s work. We met on 5th grade and we became friends instantly. She then left when we were in Highschool, and it was quite hard for us. I do feel so identified with the saying “friends are like stars, you don’t always see them but you know they are there” because we might not talk every day and we haven’t seen each other for so long, but I love her like a sister and I trust her like I trust no other friend. We still run to each other and share our secrets, sadness, happiness.. As if we were still together.
My second long distance relationship was with my ex boyfriend. And it was very easy to have a long distance with him, it was a chill and non stress relationship. I didn’t miss him everyday, somedays I was so happy that he was not with me everyday and I enjoyed our time apart. We didn’t last long, maybe 7 months or a bit more. But there was no commitment or any pressure at all, because we weren’t inlove, so that definitely made it easier for us to be apart. The third long distance I’ve had is my actual boyfriend- and we’ve been on it for almost 27 months now. By now I thought it would be easier and we would be used to be away from each other but HELL NO! I need to be next to him, I miss him more than I could miss anyone and it gets no easier everyday.. I still can’t get used to being away from him. And when we started dating he was in USA a bit closer and better because him visiting could be easier! Now that he is in Lithuania him visiting often is out of the question.
And then the latest addition to my long distance list is my dear mother. It’s no secret that my mom is my very best friend in the whole world. She is the one person I tell literally everything to, I talk to her everyday and get the best advices from her. So not being able to just get home and find her there waiting to hear about my stories it’s hard.

It’s hard to decide which is harder- being away from mom or being away from my dear boyfriend. But if you ask me right now I would say being away from my boyfriend is the hardest. It’s just so many things involved. I miss the physical touch, the hugs, the sleeping together and waking up to his kisses; I miss him watching over me when I was scared, the feeling that when I walk with him I’m protected. And distance affects so many little things that frustrate me and make me go crazy. Because we need to receive and give attention to each other but then you sacrifice so many things you wouldn’t have to if we were together. It’s frustrating when he has to choose between doing something fun and relaxing or just sitting on a computer talking to me. It hurts me because I wish I could just be there and do the fun things together and not having to put in that position of choosing. And sometimes I feel like “he should go have a drink with his friends, he had been working so hard” and I sacrifice my need for his attention, but sometimes I really need him to stay so he sacrifices a couple of hours of fun. And it makes me feel guilty.
So yea, it is really hard. You can’t imagine how hard it is. And it takes sacrifice, it takes commitment, patience, trust and it takes hard work but most importantly two people who are really inlove so they can make it work one way or another. There is no special guideline you can follow to make it easier, or magic or specific steps. But if you are in a long distance relationship you need to be patient because you need to try different things to make your relationship work, and with time you need to change your “strategy” because as time passes things change so you need to adapt to those changes.
For me and my boyfriend, things don’t work the same way now as they work in the beginning. When we started he was in College and it was a totally different deal, we would videochat mostly on weekends for a couple of hours but after that I wouldn’t hear much from him but on weekdays we would chat everyday. I knew he deserved to party, so I was ok with him not chatting all day on weekends. Now that he is in Lithuania and he is working, but I need more from him, so video chatting only on weekends didn’t fulfill my needs anymore and besides that our time difference is bigger now, so we needed a new plan. So we agreed to have Skype dates everyday for an hour. And of course some days we can’t but we make it up to each other. So how much and how often we communicate to each other changes every now and then, but what’s important is communicate everyday, at least 30 mins chatting a day, or a call a day or one text a day. But communication is the key- of course some days you won’t be able to talk to each other or text each other, but don’t let long periods pass by without talking. There should be constant communication, at least a daily reminder on how much you love them and miss them. Be each other’s partner in crime and help each other, support each other. Because if you are both inlove it then it won’t be easy to be away for neither of you. I used to think it was easier for my boyfriend, but I’ve learned that he has a different way of dealing with it and he is more in control of himself, but it’s just as hard for him. Just because he doesn’t cry, or just because he doesn’t lose it daily it doesn’t mean he is having it easy- that was hard for me to learn but I know now. And it’s pure logic, girls are more emotional and dramatic by nature hahaha.
My boyfriend is just amazing, because he is not only in a long distance relationship but he is in a long distance relationship with me. And I have a bad habit of making it hard for him with no real reason at all. And he still puts his heart into our relationship. I thought I knew more about love than he did but I was so wrong. He has taught me to be more positive, I’ve learned from him that in a relationship you need to let go of past mistakes and be forgiving. And that’s what love is about- constantly forgiving no matter what is it that the other person did, forgive and forget. Don’t make each other’s life miserable for small things that don’t matter. There are some small things that DO matter, but you can always just ignore the little mistakes that are not important. Small things in a relationship are tricky, because guys should understand that some small things make a huge difference but girls need to understand that some small things aren’t worth the drama.

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I still can’t figure out why exactly is it that out of all long distance relationships being away from my boyfriend is the hardest. But it might be because is the one that needs the most attention from, that needs touch and physical affection and it’s the most passionate one. But let me tell you, it’s going to be hard, some days you will feel lost, tired and feel like giving up. But the harder it gets the closer you are to getting to your goal. And it will be worth it. It’s not easy but the reward will be amazing. I’m sure it will be! I promise you that as long there is love and commitment you will make it. Don’t give up as long as it’s real love, and how would you know if it’s real love? Because even when all the physical affection is not there, when everything has been so hard and difficult for a long time- even then you will love them, and not only love them but you will LOVE them more than ever.

Hasta la vista,
Adri ❤

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