Change.

When I first started this Blog, not too long ago, I had so much to say and so many stories to write, and I still have so much to share but there are so many things going on in my life right now that I don’t even know how I feel.

You hear so many times that time flies by and life can change in a second, but you never realize how true this is until it’s your own life that’s changing in a blink of an eye. One day you feel so blessed and the luckiest person in the world and then next day your world falls apart, and you think to yourself: can it get any worse than this? and yet life decides to answer your question by turning things worse than they were before. And there you are, someone who always had so many people to go to when things turn blue, and now you are sitting at a coffee place all by your own, not knowing if you could really count on someone. You sit there and start drinking your coffee, look around you and see many different stories in the people who are around you. You see the little girl with her mommy, but there is no dad, maybe he is working or maybe he is never around, but she is so happy and full of hopes, with a bright future ahead of her, and you see her mommy smiling back at her but you realize that she is not really smiling and probably she is not even happy, she could have so many problems going on and she is trying to figure out how to make things work to provide the best that she can for her little one. And then you turn your head and see the old guy sitting by himself, reading the newspaper. What could his story be? Why is he alone? Could it be that his kids who are now adults with lives of their own don’t visit him anymore because they are too busy to visit after their mother died? Or maybe because they don’t want to waste their precious time listening to their old “papa” complain. Or maybe he never had a wife and family of his own because once when he was a young guy he thought making money was everything and now he finds himself sitting alone everyday and he regrets putting work before his personal life. But maybe he is just someone who enjoys being alone and decided to come to have coffee by himself and his family is waiting for him to come back. And at last you see the girl who works at the coffee place, who seems so bitter. Probably she never expected she was going to end up being a waitress, she wanted to be a Lawyer but she did not have enough money to make it to College. And now she is stuck with a job she does not enjoy and most likely does not give her enough money to pay the bills.

And then there is you, the one who not long ago had the brightest future of all, and who was always surrounded by people who truly loved you and now you have the saddest of all stories. You are a 21 year old girl, who once used to be so fancy, who once used to model and be the center of attention, and now you are sitting with your hair in a messy bun, no make up on, no fancy things on you and no one notices you anymore. You have so many things to do, so many problems to be solved. When did you grow up? When did you become an adult? And you think to yourself you can’t return your life and ask for a better one, now this is it and you have to fight to make out of your life the best you can. But you just don’t know what the future holds, and it is scary, but you know you can build a bright future for yourself, deep inside you have hope. You just feel unappreciated, wondering if someone would even notice if you were missing.

Those are my thoughts today..

Hasta la vista,

Adri.

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*This picture is NOT mine, it was taken from Google Images to illustrate my feelings today.

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